There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light// In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right// and it comes in black and it comes in white// And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it.
These lyrics ring so true - I don't understand how the human mind and conscience works. Black is black, white is white - you're either one or the other. I want people to get what they see from me. I don't want to give a false impression of who I really am as a person. That can come off as blunt, rude, or stuck up -but I'd rather be those things in the eyes of people who don't really know the content of my character, then fake. I use to go along with the small talk, but I don't know if it's age or with enlightened dissernment but I won't anymore. I will not waste my time on those that just want to bring people down, or continually try to lift themselves up to a role of superiority. People that don't value family, spiritual and carnal - don't deserve time in my days any longer. People that know what's wrong and right, those that know the truth and ignore it are far worse then those that live in oblivion and I, for one, rather walk away.
This is just something that's been on my mind for sometime now and today it was just intensified. I'm confident that I'm on to something here, I feel better about my relationships, they feel more genuine then a lot I see around me. I feel like i've isolated myself in many aspects but it's been a good opportunity to concentrate on personal growth. I'm happy with my life, and those I choose to share it with. I'm still a work in progress but even if it's not always pretty, right now, my goal is to be genuine.
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